Into the Void

Letting Go

In which Annie ponders the state of America today.  And wonders what we might each do, to best combat the polarization it's hard to ignore these days, along political and other lines. 
We also hear a little bit from her sessions with her shrink, Dr. X, and some comedy outtakes, addressing the disparate themes of intimate relationships and psychiatric hospitalizations.  
Trigger warnings on this episode, as for all episodes.  There is crude/ sexually explicit language the standup comedy outtakes included here, as well as other potentially triggering material throughout.  

Wish You Were Here

In which Annie reflects on feeling a portion of hope for the first time in a while; on 'God' and spirituality.  And reads to us from her new work in progress, "Some Can Tell Stories."
We take our title from Pink Floyd's song of the same name.  And recall a particularly salient, a propos, quote from the 1975 release, "So, you think you can tell Heaven from Hell, blue skies from rain."  
A reading of which might be-- that sometimes, that which we take for granted, is the wrong-headed assumption, upon which we have been endeavoring to construct our lives.  But, with a faulty foundation, the whole is sure to come tumbling down, sooner or later.  

The Identified Patient

When an Aunt tells Annie that she must be 'hallucinating,' if she thinks she's been treated with anything other than love and respect, Annie once again must confront the truth of who her family is, how they view and treat her.  At the same time, she's enjoying a fair portion of her time abroad in Barcelona, and fantasizing about spending more time there in the future.  

The Red Book

This episode takes its title from Jung's  book of the same name, in a veiled reference to a new online friend Annie's made, named Vic.  Listen to Annie reflect on her time in Barcelona, a number of relationships, and the nature of some of her own weaknesses and difficulties in managing any and all of the above.  

Here, in Barcelona

Annie's made it to Barcelona.  Visit with her as she considers her trip thus far, and speaks frankly about her own demons, and the voices in her head holding her back, as well as those, propelling her forwards.  In Barcelona!

Time and Again

We take the title for tonight's episode from the wonderful novel of the same name by Jack Finney.
stroll through the lower east side with Annie as it snows lightly and she contemplates her upcoming trip and the grave in letting things be.  Just for a little while.

Everyone makes mistakes so why can't you?

Annie takes us on a journey through her mind, discussing her artistic practice, her current thinking on anger, disappointment, forgivingness and reenactments.  
Appropriately, this is our first episode to be published, then retracted, then edited, and then, re-released, and then, acknowledged publicly as having been such-- i.e. edited, post-initial release.
"Everyone makes mistakes, so why can't you?" takes is a wonderful of art becoming the thing and the thing becoming the art, As Annie takes us on a psychological/ philosophical journey in real time from anger to forgiveness, doing her best to honor Mr. Rogers' famous words.  
Mr. Rogers of course, was almost always correct... so one has to wonder what his mistakes could possibly have been.  Perhaps, he ate all the cookies.  
 

Urban Drift

Join Annie on a ramble around midtown as she drinks a smoothie and reflects on various things.  

Moral Grandeur and Spiritual Audacity

A tall order!  This week's episode takes its title from the book of the same name a collection of essays by Abraham Joshua Heschel, edited by his daughter, Susanna Heschel.  
This episode runs the gamut-- from comedy to philosophy to therapy-- as we hear Annie reflecting on some of the themes-- from Herschel's book-- in the context of her own life-- and this podcast.

The Broken Middle

A combination of reflections and therapy have Annie pulling out of survival mode once more, and planning a trip to Barcelona!  And Cookie the wonderful eats a bialy.