Into the Void

State of Grace

In the episode of 'the void,' we hear Annie and her friend E. having a far-ranging conversation about men's mental health, men, and dating.  We also hear Annie's most recent standup comedy performance, and she shares an excerpt from her new short story.
There's something peaceful and different about this episode.  Because Annie, herself, is finally present.  The root, or base part herself.  Welcome, Annie, to the conversation.  We're so happy to have you.  Trigger warnings for those who get triggered.  

Invincible Summer

We take this episodes title from an Albert Camus quote, "In the midst of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer."  Appropriate because Annie is in Paris, healing from some heartache, and the season is, indeed Summer!  Join Annie for some reflections on moving on from her breakup, some stand up comedy outtakes, and her own blend of humor, philosophy, & self-reflection.  LIberte, Egalite, Fratrenite!! A worthy set of principles & values.  

Into the Void, Generation Next

In which we hear from Annie again, after a long pause between episodes.  She's got some excerpts from her comedy and therapy to share with us, as well as other news.  
Annie shares a newfound recognition of the importance of this show and its taping as part of her recovery.  

The Carrier of Hope

In which we hear a little bit of Annie speaking in session with her therapist, Dr. X, as well as some of her stand up comedy.

Wish You Were Here

In which Annie reflects on feeling a portion of hope for the first time in a while; on 'God' and spirituality.  And reads to us from her new work in progress, "Some Can Tell Stories."
We take our title from Pink Floyd's song of the same name.  And recall a particularly salient, a propos, quote from the 1975 release, "So, you think you can tell Heaven from Hell, blue skies from rain."  
A reading of which might be-- that sometimes, that which we take for granted, is the wrong-headed assumption, upon which we have been endeavoring to construct our lives.  But, with a faulty foundation, the whole is sure to come tumbling down, sooner or later.  

The Identified Patient

When an Aunt tells Annie that she must be 'hallucinating,' if she thinks she's been treated with anything other than love and respect, Annie once again must confront the truth of who her family is, how they view and treat her.  At the same time, she's enjoying a fair portion of her time abroad in Barcelona, and fantasizing about spending more time there in the future.  

The Red Book

This episode takes its title from Jung's  book of the same name, in a veiled reference to a new online friend Annie's made, named Vic.  Listen to Annie reflect on her time in Barcelona, a number of relationships, and the nature of some of her own weaknesses and difficulties in managing any and all of the above.  

Here, in Barcelona

Annie's made it to Barcelona.  Visit with her as she considers her trip thus far, and speaks frankly about her own demons, and the voices in her head holding her back, as well as those, propelling her forwards.  In Barcelona!

Time and Again

We take the title for tonight's episode from the wonderful novel of the same name by Jack Finney.
stroll through the lower east side with Annie as it snows lightly and she contemplates her upcoming trip and the grave in letting things be.  Just for a little while.

Everyone makes mistakes so why can't you?

Annie takes us on a journey through her mind, discussing her artistic practice, her current thinking on anger, disappointment, forgivingness and reenactments.  
Appropriately, this is our first episode to be published, then retracted, then edited, and then, re-released, and then, acknowledged publicly as having been such-- i.e. edited, post-initial release.
"Everyone makes mistakes, so why can't you?" takes is a wonderful of art becoming the thing and the thing becoming the art, As Annie takes us on a psychological/ philosophical journey in real time from anger to forgiveness, doing her best to honor Mr. Rogers' famous words.  
Mr. Rogers of course, was almost always correct... so one has to wonder what his mistakes could possibly have been.  Perhaps, he ate all the cookies.