Into the Void

Join Annie on a ramble around midtown as she drinks a smoothie and reflects on various things.  

A tall order!  This week's episode takes its title from the book of the same name a collection of essays by Abraham Joshua Heschel, edited by his daughter, Susanna Heschel.  
This episode runs the gamut-- from comedy to philosophy to therapy-- as we hear Annie reflecting on some of the themes-- from Herschel's book-- in the context of her own life-- and this podcast.

A combination of reflections and therapy have Annie pulling out of survival mode once more, and planning a trip to Barcelona!  And Cookie the wonderful eats a bialy.  

The secret to life is enjoying the ride.  For Eagle.

In which Annie hauls her ass out of survival mode, with the help of some premium cannabis. She finds herself happily returned to the world of the present, where she is able to begin to repair her relationship with her wonderful group therapist, Rachel.

In which Annie feels like an insect. A flea.  And makes the painful decision decide to walk away from people who treat her in ways that contribute to such feelings--of insignificance and inhumanity; even when those people are her mother.  

In which we hear Annie speak briefly to the election and her response to it.  As well, about Annie's response to other people's response to her response as compared to their response.  All of which amounts to a mouthful of projective identification.  Also in this episode-- leaps and bounds in the therapy room!  As, probably for the first time in her life, Annie feels fundamentally more steady and comfortable in the knowledge she has about her own character, comportment, and value.   Thereby releasing  herself from the curse of letting other people dictate who we are, or how we feel about ourselves.  L'chaim.  

Annie starts this episode out a little #triggered, so please be thoughtful if you yourself get triggered before listening!  But 15 minutes later, she ends the episode in a very different state of mind, feeling almost a little happy, and very #grateful.  This one is for my beautiful cousin Michelle.  Love you cuz.  

Self explanatory but you gotta listen, to get it.  Thank you to the universe for my strength and for rice pudding.

"Well," said the friend, "did you discover her point of view?" 
"I don't know that I did," replied the woman, "but at any rate I think mine has undergone a considerable alteration." [Stephen Crane, An Experiment in Misery].