Into the Void

Beauty School Dropout

In which Annie gets kicked out of standup comedy school, by one of the greats in the industry.  And struggles with her own limitations, the tough stuff life throws at you, and comes out feeling like she's got a think about or frame the adversity that inevitably comes to each of us in life.  

The Dulling Edge

In which Annie loses her newfound sobriety but finds a little grace and generosity of spirit to share with her mom on her mothers birthday.

Singing All Alone

"From Sappho to myself, consider the fate of women.  How unwomanly to discuss it!  Like a noose or an albatross necktie, the clinical sobriquet hangs us...."
-Carolyn Kizer, 'Pro Femina'

Into the Woods

In which we hear from some of Annie's other parts and they share some background from childhood. And Annie self-identifies for the first time as an addict.

Easy Does It

It's Super Bowl Sunday, and Annie ventures out to see some comedy at The Fat Black Pussycat, where she inadvertently scares a comedian, and finds her way to an AA meeting with some happy results.  Also we hear an outtake of her performance at an open mic and about the latest dude she's spent time with... who is... [wait for it]- married.  [sigh.].

Be Sand, Not Oil, [for Paul].

In this episode we hear several more of Annie’s “parts” make an appearance in an excerpt from another therapy session with Dr. X. As well as catching up on some of her progress, and struggle, in managing a difficult relationship with her mom. This episode is for Paul, and Annie reads a short excerpt from his beautifully curated, edited, printed, and bound book “Be Sand, Not Oil” on the life and work of Amos Vogel. Amos Vogel, in the words of Scorsese: “The man was a giant,” who remained dedicated to the avant-garde, and film as a subversive art, throughout his long and fruitful life.

The Brain In Search of Itself

Annie discusses gender identity and sexuality in her experience of DID, manages to ret something new, and returns to the existentialists discussing a quote from RD Laing as it relates to her family's dynamics.

The Participation Episode

Annie is still sober and still grumpy. She reads to us from her work and shares a snippet from her standup comedy class.

The Sober Truth

Wherein Annie speaks to her shrink Dr. X about her 4 day new sobriety.

Serenity Now

The episode wherein Annie is approximately 48 hours sober, and not happy about it. She recites John Donne poorly; makes some weird commentary on death; and also asks listeners with an interest in being interviewed to write her an email at anniek200@iicloud.me using the subject line “podcast.” Won’t you all be my neighbor? And join me, in the void…